"I don't want to feel numbed out. I don't feel like me when I'm on meds."
Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder with really low lows (depression), and really high highs (mania). People with bipolar want to get rid of the lows, but the highs can actually feel pretty good. A lot of people with bipolar are extremely creative and highly productive during their manic periods. A number of artists and high level executives use their manic periods to drive their careers. Is it any surprise, then, that some people with bipolar don't want to take medication for fear of loosing their creativity or productivity?